Actually surprised Dr M.H.

Hmmmmm. Sometimes some conversations and etiquette in them are unavoidable. Let's just say Dr., I have a certain type of hunger, and couldn't help but appreciate more. I wish I could have a little more of a professional rep, and really prove that I mean what I say about gossip, but with my priorities, I put being real before proving how self-righteous I am about gossip.......Maybe you are a little upset from the other day where I seemed to mock your confidence a little for the way you were questionably being rejecting. Now, you look like you are showing your confidence in a subtle way where you know you are not desperately ridiculous like the others: "What it's like to live with $20,000 in credit card debt: Can you relate?" No, I didn't click the link and read it, but the title tells me: You aren't using the poor vulnerability against me. It looks as if you look on the bright side to say, I no longer have the literal credit card debt pressure. Yes and No. I did go bankrupt. Regardless of just that, getting or trying to keep a job has been nothing but a sick joke. I question if I should just stop trying to look altogether, or maybe just keep seeking and maybe I will run into the right type of employer, or there may be a black market of a reality I don't completely understand. Some unsaid expectations. I really have kept my professional confidence no matter how many times I've been ripped on. It is just that I've been so ganged up on, hated on, and everything in the book against me, I'm left with no other choice: it is this town, not me. Whatever gossip is out there, or whatever reputation someone wants to make of me, I have always thought I've been too good for. Of course the mad men won't let me speak the truth or stop beating me to death with their arrogance, but I know there are too many negative lies and things being said about me. I really am not one to obsess over confidence in any or every individual. Perhaps I face some sort of backwards punishment for not calling out another's lack of confidence or jealousy. Sometimes, I have my own way of making it personal with someone, but I'm not out to be an OCD predator. I know I have the other polar opposite where "I'm the one who should be jealous." I was never out for a competition like that either, but I hate the way people are too ignorant and/or want to grope me into their agenda. I don't always want to let people in on my agenda for my own personal sake. When I accuse someone of being a subjective Calvin, I really mean what I say. I have had some serious abusers that just seem to want to murder me and force me into being a bottom feeder or making the bottom feeder out of me I never was. I know there are probably other intelligent terms, but I'm not a thesaurus. I just hate the way people think they deserve to control another person's values and wants through concepts or people. I hate their rigs. I hate their manipulations and will to manipulate to lie. There is a specific way I feel starved and raw, and it would be nice for you to keep your confidence by not being ridiculous or desperate as long as you can. I don't know what you are really up to or what your agenda is. I know there are other ways to be a predator too. Could you just prevent yourself from preying on or hurting me for as long as you can?

I hate the way this has several different angles.

My summed up version of "The Secret Life of Walter Mitty?" It is about a photographer and photo maker who really are just gay for each other. Although, Mitty goes across the world and climbs mountains and Shawn has a sincere admiration to his face, the relationship just doesn't happen. Walter does appear to be very into "Cheryl." However, THE LOUD HINT WAS THERE. It is either a swinger relationship there, or she is a lied to victim who is the cover object for their closet...... surprise surprise. Men get my attention just to keep saying how much more they hate me again...... After my summed up version..... I will not be called Cheryl. I just won't be. Second off, I do see Shawn D'Atri's threat to my face, HE IS GOING TO MAKE ME: HIS, BRI'S, AND BECKY'S conquest. He fucking hates me that much he will keep threatening me with his conquestial terrorism until whatever of my anorexic remains don't even look like human matter anymore. I hate you too Shawn. I hate you too. I do hope that some people will catch on to your terrorism and turn you into the next Gadaffi............................ Travis? Maybe he wants to use Travis's questionable slave or follower tool to make me give in and succumb to his Brawny man where Travis and I will be this coupled slaves of Shawn and Bree Ann's arbitrage. Or, we'll just be their slaving swingers on call. It really is in Travis's hands now with what his real self-identity is among several arbitrage people. Travis, right now you do look like either their slave or a swinger and don't want the loneliness and want me to be your fellow slave or slaving swinger. THAT IS WHAT YOU ARE TO ME RIGHT NOW TRAVIS......... Shawn, I really do hate the way you want to keep getting away with your lies and rigs and me buried alive to your face. I hate the way you gave yourself the credit for Edward. Edward really was my perfect stranger and I knew who I was thinking about when I was with him: E-D-W-A-R-D. I appreciate the one night stand Edward was, and you can't terrorize me out of it. I am no one's conquest. Not even the Rocky Gap Casino Edward and the Casino Becky. FUCK YOUR LYING RIGS, HATEFUL BITCHES.

Wish I had a better title

I really do hate calling it surprise surprise because to be numb to a life like this is and has been wrong.....
Jon, you aren't the only person who is wanting to pester me to death or demand more oil. Still angry in so many undescribable ways. I will never get over your mysogyny and the things that have been done. I will never forgive you.
Right now, the main thing that needs to be loud and clear with Jon Ashton and the rest of his senator arbitrage bitches IS THAT I DO NOT IDENTIFY MYSELF WITH KIM AND IF STILL PURSUED WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH ANY SENATOR OF THIS ARBITRAGE. It isn't because of being a boy toy; it is the association. And of all the things I am leisure with, guess what else I am leisure with? Who I will and won't expect loyalty from. Fact of the matter is Jon, you are such a sick, mysogynistic sexual predator who is guilty with or without Kim's sick sexual predator. You have both sexually offended me in the worst ways with your sick entitled judgement on beastiality and Jon has nothing but lists of mysogynistic sexual offenses. Still, some pursue in either their ignorance or intentional mysogynistic hate. Jon, whether or not you like Kim's rape; I hope you experience the worst rape imaginable that is 10x morbid to Kim's existence. With how mysogynistic you are; if you havn't already fucked Benicio del Torro, he would probably be the biggest braggert fuck of a fuck you've ever had. So would this guy:


If not, and it was in my power to do hurt you, I would want you raped from someone like him.

If I had the info, the power, or the weapon to hurt any arbitrage bitch senator of Jon Ashton, I'd love for him to get a clue just how serious of a mysogynist I think he is.
Fuck you, Fuck Kim, I wish the worst on you for the rest of your life.

Once again screwed over by boss and state

My unemployment statement came in the mail today.
I'm really not surprised that I was denied, and it is ashame to see that another jealous bigot has demonized my name once again.
I don't care about philosophy or karma games right now.
People need to keep in mind what my loud agenda is and that I already have some significant attention: My agenda is against the system and people's judgement and corruption in the system.
If people want to obsess over things, I'll take the ethical route and write my letter. It should be of no surprise by now when the viewers will see that my appeal has no submissiveness or respect for either boss or state.
I will tell them off as I normally do and when the honesty is out with complaints already made that I have both said and written, there should be more people held accountable for their own negligence, neglect, DENIAL, and abuse.
I don't feel like writing right now, I'm going to wait until tomorrow for some anger to get out; I'm simply too mad to write.
Screw my Kim Jong Ill grandma; she thinks I'll be crawling back to her anytime soon or for any holiday occassion? Hell no. Screw other matrix people who lie and mess with my life too.
I am a very hated person right now; I'm not blind to it. I do hear comments that people make. I also hear other harassment as well. "Nurse Nancy Pelosi," can shut the hell up with the "delusional," bullshit.
The story with my sis is short and sweet. I said we mutually have no effect on each other. I also said the right person will shoot down her arrogance one day. I don't care about damaging anyone anymore; I finished my fued by saying: "Guys only let you win because you're a sex object. I refuse to be a sex object to get my way in life." Brace yourself for another tune when I feel harassed: Sherry Baby. My prediction is that there will be a rebellion and there will be public hookers all over the place. It is how typical and predictable people are.
I really am not trying to be an authoritarian. I'm sick of the harassment. People are forcing "competition" and fighting on me. You beg me to practically say some things. You are desperate for my hatred.